And so I think the first time I really realized that I was watching Jules Rosskam's documentary called Against a Trans Narrative.

If I could walk into a room and have people identify my gender as trans, not as masculine, not as feminine, but as trans, that would be like my ideal. And I was like, that's how I feel like that's my gender.

Like I never wanted to be a man. I never didn't feel right being a woman, but that was something that felt right for me. And so that was the beginning of me being like, Okay, like people are having really different experiences. What is mine? And so the way I tell my narrative now, I don't feel like I was born in the wrong body.

I feel like I've made a series of choices to change my body and to change the way I present my gender. And just like some people undergo surgical intervention for breast augmentation or something else, like that's how I think of it. Or, people are super into going to the gym.

That's how my physical transition has been. That is a series of choices and that I like taking testosterone, will I do it forever? Probably? I really wanted facial hair.

But yeah, I don't, I like, I've liked my body. I worked really hard as a woman to be okay with my body as a woman, which in this culture we're supposed to hate our fucking bodies. And I found a gender sort of expression as an androgynous gay woman that I ended up really loving. And It really wasn't until I met some other trans people and I was like, eh, maybe this is something that I could explore.